Little update, xx.

I don't have much to share.

Little update, umm I am completing my driving classes for the JPJ's exam next week. Got my temporary license to practice from Malaysian Medical Council, Alhamdulillah. Now waiting for the SPA to call me and set up an interview. Hopefully I'll start working on January 2013, and same goes to MJ, I hope he got selected for the LCS team and being sent away to design a ship too. Ameen.

I really miss my girlfriends. Sob sob. This song dedicated  to wherever you are girls.  (Nurul Dianah, Nur Hanina, Iiffa Nabilah, Nurayuni, Nor Hasanah, Noranati, Zazarida, Hakimah Dharwisyah)

Love,
me.

Our version.

 

Guess which one is his version, and guess which one is mine?

Tee hee. 

Below, the caption.

Xoxo
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My prayers with you.

Alhamdulillah.
Congrats love.
Will always pray for your success.
Go nail it!!

I know u might not that interested on this, but go gain experiences.

Wish you good luck! InsyaAllah.

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Mine.

Because I think she's awesome,

so I dedicate this to

Muhd Zulkhairi Hamzah

xoxo,

Cken. 

Iiffa Nabilah Shamsuddin B.Med.

Yay. i'm definitely proud of u ifa!
Ive known this girl since darjah berapa ek 2/3? lupa la tp since primary school lagi, ifa a transferred student dari convent kota taiping datang my school obviously a convent jugak. then dari primary sampai high school we're friends, her enemy is mine and my enemy is hers too. oh yeah alot of friends do come and go but fate bring us 5 together iiffa, me, nena, ayuni and diana.

I selalu tanya iiffa why lah nama ko ada double I, which  takda effect apa pun kat pronunciation kan? then dia cakap "masa bapak aku nak daftar nama tu, bapak aku dok penat dah cakap aiffa dengan 'A', tapi orang pendaftaran tu salah dengar, dia buat iiffaa" okay im sorry for that iiffa. dengan double I pun dapat jadi md what? hehe so proud of you mok!

right now, ayu and nena have finished their degree but convo is coming soon. dianah and me still in our medical degree program. yeah 2 of us are becoming engineers and another 3 are doctors. cliche much?

Funfacts about us.
2 of us couple dengan highschool mates which nanti time wedding it will be an unofficial reunion of our batch. how cool is that? hahaha

3 of us yang study medical sama-sama blajar in the 3rd world countries. which is, infectious disease are the specialty. hee. out of 3, 2 of us share the same country which is Indonesia. hehe

2 of us yang study engineering, shares the same uni, and they catch up selalu, which made me jealous. wuu.

after all we share the same gossips.

I wish us girls all the luck in the world.

Iiffa on her wedding graduation day.

Ps: Soon our names will be Nur Ashikin MD, Nurul Dianah MD, Iiffa Nabilah MD.  now we share the same name! yay.

Xoxo

@mat_jul

Thankyou aunty for a very wonderful son.

I wish you all the happines in the world darling.

 

Happy birthday Dear, four years isnt enough for me to learn you.

I wish for more.

Mama, Happy Mothers Day.

I love you more than I love MJ.

Hugs and kisses from me.

On our big FOUR

Just nak you tau apa I rasa tiap hari ada you bila I bangun tidur, sebelum I tidur balik, time I round ward, time dalam kereta pegi hospital, penat balik hospital dengan kerja sekolah yang banyak, exam and stress besok ujian tapi malam ni kena oncall. Hmmph. thank you sebab ada dekat bbm dan skype dan whatsapp dan sepanjang masa I perlukan you.

3 march 2011, 448pm WIB
Tiba-tiba muncul idea nak buat ni. Umm. Semalam I tido start pukul 7, I pesan kat you nanti tolong kejut. Then you PING! I dari pukul 9WIB, you misscalled, you PING! lagi tapi I tak bangun-bangun. Sorry (T_T), I memang susah sikit nak bangun. Then pukul 1am WIB I terbangun, I BBM-ed you tapi tengok-tengok you dah tetidur. You cakap sbb I tak bangun-bangun, you tertidur. You cakap you nak teman I, terus you cuci muka kemas bilik sebab you cakap kalau semak-semak you tak boleh study. Lepas tu kita stay up berdua, I buat kerja, you study sambil skype until pukul 6pagi, padahal you ada kelas pukul 8. Thankyou sebab teman I. Hmmph. Sorry I banyak susah kan you. selalu suruh you kejut I padahal alarm handphone tak rosak pun. And you sealu tak cukup tido sebab nak teman I study, last-last kita berdua end up bergossip rang through skype (-.-"). Sorry I memang short attention span. Kesian you dapat awek macam I ni tsk. Emm enough untuk hari ni, esok petang I oncall maybe tak boleh update.

5 march 2011, 830am WIB
Hello I baru sampai rumah after an ambitious oncall semalam. Hehe thanks sebab teman I sampai tertidur. I think i tertidur at 430am and pagi tadi I bangun pukul 7am. Hehe penat banyak jugak patient admit ward malam td. I miss you. Hmmph geli tapi betul. So hari ni I nak buat assignment about smoking cessation and prevention. Esok/tonight nak buat portfolio pulak untuk exam isnin at 2pm. Oh ye I oncall esok malam starts at 7pm. Kamu teman lagi ye? Hehe. Oh ye hows your day dear?

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10 April 2011 12.59WIB

Belum terlambat kan nk wish you happy 4th anniversary my dear?  Hehehe dont ask me what happen  for the rest of the month hehe. Even 2 hari, tapi atleast i tried to make an every day note for you, and it lasted for two days. Hehe u know how busy am i kan kan? hehe me heart you. be my baby forever. 

HAPPY FOURTH ANNIVERSARY MJ

<3

What I like about us is us. And let us stays private forever.

Ps:  Err you know how bad I am when it comes to jiwang words, YES I GET GELI. 

Forty 7 to 4

Is it 2011?? 

Hehe still rasa macam 2007, you tak buncit sangat lagi masa tu, I gmok skit, lepas tu I kurus time 2009-10 lepas tu 2011 I gemuk balik. Hehe mesti you ingatkan? Tahun 2009-10 I makan sikit tak banyak sangat, so nanti you yang tolong habiskan sebab perut I kecut sikit masa tu. Sekarang you diet, siape nak tolong habiskan makanan I? Eh lupa, I kan dah gemuk, mestilah boleh habiskan makanan tu sendiri. Hmmph.

I seronok kawan dengan you, kadang-kadang you polos, kadang-kadang you gila, ye, I teringat idea you nak beli rumah hantu rm50 yang famous  depan Wetworld Shah Alam tu, nak terkentut I dengar masa you cakap nak beli rumah tu sambil I bayangkan nanti kalau ada anak perempuan comel macam Christina Ricci lepastu I meninggal lepastu you dengan anak perempuan pindah masuk rumah tu lepastu anak kita yang cantik macam Christina Ricci tu nanti kawan dengan hantu trumah RM50 tu sebab kawan sekolah dia tak cool, lepas tu time anak kita buat housewarming party nanti hantu tu tukar jadi handsome macam Devon Sawa semata-mata nak menari dengan anak kita tu. Okay fine, i memang suka movie Casper tu, tapi kalau boleh I nak tua sama-sama dengan you (-.-").

I tau you pun seronok kawan dengan I yang innocent ni kan, dah la comel pandai (read gedik)...tak sanggup I nak taip dah. Nanti you cakap I perasan. tapi I tau hati you. Hihi, I gemok, gedik, perasan, pemalas, tak reti pakai kain batik, masak pun cough*bolehboleh je*cough. Hmmph.

Thank you for this wonderful 47months of  growing up with me. I heart you. I harap you tak penat tunggu I. Another 30 days left for our big 4. But I'm feeling good, like we just happened yesterday. Terima kasih Tuhan.

Be my engineer and I'll be your doctor.

Thanks for the love MZH. Heart you. 

From my gf @DianahMahyidin

From: @DianahMahyidin
Sent: Feb 27, 2011 11:07p

@DianahMahyidin: @AshikinRazali yupp :( and all the time yg kite g mnd same2,mkn meggi tgh mlm same2,pki seliper toilet same,even bergayut pon ngan org yg same

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I miss you girl.
We are so close like sisters. We share almost everything, even now our bf had the same name. Nothing can tear us apart. Even our thoughts still the same although ur in India I'm in Indonesia.
The fact that we both will become a doctor, also an unplan beautiful thing but happened as God wants us to be together I believe.

I ♥ you diana, always have always will☺
Xoxo
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Nothing lasts forever

So do appreciate what you have now before its too late.

 

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
But misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

48 pun okay

i miscalculate it, should be 41 not 48. hukhuk

For u MJ.

but i love Jo Kwon more hikhik
jkjkjk..

saja poyo.
ok bye!

xoxo

I love may. I love you.

Kenapa? Kenapa?

On 1st May hari tu birthday anak orang asli yang paling comel dalam dunia. U are now a grown up man baby. Bila nak matured ni? hehe. 

So, i did a small surprised birthday party last saturday via webcam nak celebrate si mat jul. That evening i asked ati teman me pegi atrium senen, beli small slices of cake. The night before, i buat kerja group discussion. I plan nak surprised on 12am Malaysian time, tapi i tertido, I dah suruh MJ gerak at 1030 tapi dia tak gerak. At 1130 i awake, i call him marah, why ddnt he gerak me. Then he said, nak gerak me on 12am Malaysian time so that Ill be the one with him at his moment. Okay fine, i tido la balik hehe, am not a good gf, i know. Then dia kejut i bangun mandi, i set up the lappy and webcam. Anah derma balloon, then asked semua housemate (kim, ati, anah, zaza was too tired to bangun sorry ek zaa, tak sampai hati nak wake u up) semua duk keliling wc tu. 

At 12am WIB (indonesian time), i called MJ thru skype, and then PUFF! we sang him the birthday song. At first, dia nampak shocked, tapi muka shocked sama macam muka tengok bola Bowling i masuk longkang, can u imagine how excited he was? okay mj mmg tak banyak expression, tu yg i sayang tu hahaha.Dah laa, malas nak cerita panjang-panjang. Kalau nak tau what happened on MJ's side boleh baca sini.

Muka bufday boy, rasa nak tumbuk je. heh

 

Muka paling comel. Ni je yang i mampu hadiahkan you MJ.

 

Trying to fed him the birthday cake. Online weh online.

Tetamu yang datang memeriahkan majlis. Time kasih yaa

Oh, 9May lepas, Mother's day. You guys wish your mama tak? I wished mine, and yes i wished MJ's mak too. Kalau i dekat Malaysia, i would have bought cake/have dinner or lunch together/present for my mama. I will, when i get back near you mama. I heart youuuu forever :)

Ps, Besok cuti. Kenapa kenapa? Tak tahu tak tahu. hehehe

Till then 

♥ ,

The broken heart playlist.

I guess my heart hurts every night, lets say if i had Tuberculosis, by now, i would have suffered from anemia. I mean, chronic disease will lead to anemia. Got my point? Take care of your health children :)

Tonight: Not myself tonight - Christina Aguilera
Unspoken thoughts in my head: Issues - The Saturday
I don't want me/you living like: Ghost of you - Good Charlotte
Or even us being : Yesterday - Leona Lewis.
I'm working on: Stickwitu - The Pussycat dolls
Because now: Your love is my drug - Ke$ha
So please don't: Ignorance - Paramore
I know I'm: Creep - Radiohead
I know I'm: Vulnerable - Vanessa Hudgens
But: True - Ryan Cabrera
I wish i could: I'll Go Wherever You Will Go - The calling
Because: I Miss you - Blink 182
I won't: Unfaithful - Rihanna
You please: Take My Heart - Soko
All i want for us: Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

I: Try Sleeping With Broken Heart - Alicia Keys, but i failed, I want you.

Well, I'm tired of Sweet Dreams - Beyonce Knowles

Till then,

♥ 

Dua makhluk favourite

50 tahun lagi, maybe kamu dah buncit, kite dah kembang, rambut kamu dah takde, rambut kite dah putih, gigi kite dah takde, gigi kamu yang palsu, mate kite dah rabun teruk, bile bace kne mintak tolong kamu. Tapi kite tetap nak kamu yang tolong kejutkan kite study malam malam, tolong belikan kite topup, tolong hantar kite balik rumah, dengar kite membebel, layan kite gossip. 

Hehe time kasih! Kite sayang kamu ;)

No no,

the caption sepatutnya macam ni

See u and me in the future, u boroi, me pendek, gemok, beruban. Cepat sungguh masa berlalu. Dlu u nampak hensem, sekarang kenapa macam ni?

Whatever the caption says, i sayang you lahh. 

Maybe i cakap  "u bajet comei je" instead of "u are sweet"

or maybe i cakap "rasa nak tumbuk" instead of "I love you"

and maybe i sapa u "Hey" instead of "Sayang" bila i nampak u online

Its been three years, and I am still learning.

Be with me.

And yess i love youu.

 Happy anniversary LOVE.

And a happy 22nd birthday too my dear besterestest Girlfriend Nurul Dianah Ahmad Mahyidin. I feel like flying to India and be with on your special day dear! Lots of love, hugs hugs.

You both be mine forever and ever and ever and ever and ever to infinity :)

i ♥ mj and dianah

My not-excel-in-sports-gene theory

I got exam on  monday, and discussion's ass-ingment to be submitted on tuesday on non-vestibular vertigo. But hell yeah, im writing here. Standing oviation sekarang!

Hari ni, i nak bawak u guys mengembara ke ruang masa bersama cken. haha lame! tapi ngat tak doraemon ada machine yang dalam drawer tu kalau duduk nanti boleh pergi zaman mama-ayah still dating lagi and u can say hi im ur daughter! Im to tell tat  ur gonna have hypertension in the future, so better start control it from now cause im ur future-future doctor. oh awesome. Okay takda kaitan.

actually i teringat masa i sekolah rendah dulu, i never ever be one yang excel in sports no never. I guess takde bakat, oh yeah once i was in netball team in tcs tp simpanan ja, i played jugak but sikit sikit. haha and then i join his swimming class, then ayah got transferred to kelantan so i quit. but this past few years i realized that i can still swim dengan drumstick bebek ni. cool kan? Bebek means itik in Indo-lang okay! So, in high school i lagilah tak main apa-apa. But i managed to be penolong ketua rumah when i was in form 5. Yeah, i can be a good manager at all. I find my bakat at last tee hee

So, kesimpulannya the highest level in sports yang i pernah main is wakil sekolah for daerah kinta in netball, as a simpanan. hahaha MJ u should be proud of me!

Semalam, ashrin masuk competition gymrama in taiping as i told you kan dia memang pelapis perak in this sorta thing. sebelum ashrin ber-gym sekali lagi untuk top 8 finalist, mama ada vid call me, i talked to ashrin, she was like "kakak, takuut". Oh perempuan ni sangat cutee, jadi i pun janji nak hadiah kan choclairs RM2 kalau dia menang!

Secara tak sengaja competition tu actually dah peringkat negeri, get it tak? macam ni, so ashrin wakil daerah untuk selection wakil perak. Tak paham? Ok fine next time makan B-complex banyak sikit. so i get this msg from mamanor (as mama busy makan kuetiaw goreng doli in taiping, sumpah sedap gila weh.)

Mamanor: cuba teka ashrin dapat no berapa?

Me:  Haha entah, no idea.

Mamanor: Mana pulak pergi idea awak tu?? awak ada 3g tak? mano call jap

Me: aha. ada2. call laa.

So there u go they vid call me, and guess what? Ashrin won the competition. Ashrin dengan makeup tebal, baju sekerat pusat terkeluar (ala ala britney dalam video clip crazy, ingat tak? ala ingat la ingat la), pink sanggul, pink sweater and hotpants was smiling. Yes, dia terlihat kurus seperti sebelumnya. and yes, i nampak mama too and suddenly mama tunjuk2 her kueytiaw to me. Mama im puasa okay! hahaha. she's funny as always. then mama cakap, this ashrin dah beat kakak-kakak dia, coz the first one dalam family yang wakil perak in sports, hahaha. And i was, yeaaah! i kalah. Onie? She do excels in kompang. believe me. In sports? Tiap kali sports selection saringan apa entah  mesti dia cakap macam ni "adik dah lari  laju dah tapi mesti ada  je orang depan adik". Alasan alasan (-.-")

 

Ashrin: In the same suits that she wore in the competition, and she's in the junior category, so fancy costumes doesn't give u extra point indeed.

This coming march, ashrin ada competition lagi in penang wakil perak in gymrama junior category dear. So, I wish u goodluck dear.  I guess my not-excel-in-sports-gene theory was wrong.

Ps: Mama said since ashrin menang first place, so i haf to belanja her double dari what ive promised. 

Pss: Ashrin got intervied by apa ntah so, i tried to cari her vid kat sini but tak jumpa, i guess dorang belum update kot?

Psss: I found this website, and i think its funny.

♥ 

Down there.

I'ts been a while dear

I have been missing you

My thoughts are saying

You feel the same though

And I hope

There, deep down there

Of yours, which

 Nobody knows

Just us

Now go away you silly feelings!

Don't dare to come back.

Ps, I think I am falling for you. Yeah you.
 Me ♥ MJ

Before we met those drunken men

last pic: MJ ♥ C
isnt it cuuuteee???
hehehe

Till then♥

As early as 453 am

I sing
By Emily Dickinson 

I sing to use the waiting
My bonnet but to tie,
And close the door unto my house
No more to do have I

Till his best step approaching,
We journey to the day,
And tell each other how we sung
To keep the Dark away. 

MJ,

About us, 

Its been a while

I am missing you

Yours truly,

♥

Wishlist pompuan typical

Have i told you i will be landed in Singapore on the 9th january at 11pm?

hahahahahahahaha Singapore je kot?

Okay sebenarnya frustrated sangat dengan exam last wed. everytime jawab exam pun nak frustrated kan, typical betul. Eh tapi this time memang frust sebab exam susah, then dah bli flight ticket pulak, part paling stress date balik excluding remedial  (repeat exam bagi yang tak pass) weeks. Thats why tension. But cannot tension sebab dah berazam this third year taknak sangkut on any papers *doublewoot*!

Since i will be in Malaysia this coming january kan ada several things yang i nak buat (must do) so ive put it in a list

1. Jumpa my family on the 12th, since i turn 22 on that day and must say dat on that day jugak i might be heading to ipoh from johor, i kan turun at singapore, remember?
2. Sesi menternak lemak tepu for the whole weekdays, then nak jumpa my mj on the next weekend. mama dah janji nak masak asam pedas and rendang when i get back. Whoaaa. hungryy!
3. On weekdays i thought nak ikut mama pergi kerja.
   
4. Weekend kan ada 2 hari, so on the weekdays i thought nak pergi beronggeng dengan aaina since she went back from makassar for hols too. Apa benda cakap pasal weekend melalut sampai weekdays. hmpph
   
5. Weekend nak jumpa wana, nena, ayu, u guys kena balik ipoh jugak tak kiraaa. hahahaha. since lowed pun dah janji nak balik every weekend nak meronggeng with me kan.ahahaha.
6. Every weekend nak pergi dating, since mj kerja on the weekdays
7. Get myself a blackberry kalau duit JPA masuk cepat, then balik jakarta puasa 3bulan. cool!

Speaking of weekend, berapa weekend yang i ada?? Wooooo T_T

Oh have i told you my mama worked dengan NGO? err tak tahu lah position apa,  i think penyelia kot. but she handle this small school of OKU called Pusat Pemulihan Dalam Komuniti. Ive been there, tak selalu tapi pernah la ikut mama pergi majlis buka puasa and jamuan hari raya, and i rasa enjoy layan those kids. They are innocent, decent and funny, but sometimes boleh buat my mama punya BP naik jugak haish. But I think maybe nanti i nak amik specialist in pediatrics tapi belum tahu nak major in apa. Duh, degree medicine pun tunggang terbalik lagi dah berangan nak amik specialist, ceh.

I nak pergi sambung buat ass-ignment. Actually tak start pun lagi. Pfft.

Mama's students performing bunyi gitar by P. Ramlee. Theyre cute kan??

Standing 2nd from right sebaya i kalau tak salah. Tee-hee

Ps, i think down syndrome kids are extremely cute. Don't you?
♥,

Isteri derhaka

Hye.
Meet mat jul, the one in green (tak jelas) mask.
Padan muka dia. HAHA

Seronok kan bila boleh buli mr Boyfriend. Try lah BuddyPoke on facebook!
Selain popped the chewing gum, banyak lagi benda derhaka yang boleh anda lakukan.

Take note: only in virtual applications (buddypoke) je lah. Real life, masuk neraka (hell) nanti!


Zombie-ing together/Chase for Mj

Campak pegi laut

hahahah :P

Lepas buat jahat, mintak ampun OK?
maybe some of these will help :D


ajak tunggang tunggek rock climbing together


Muncul dari ceiling and fake a spiderman kissing scene.

Paling worst: Propose! Erk!

Ps, Just awake few hours ago, but too cold in here, I am yawning all over again.
Ps 2, Going to watch New Moon tonight.
Ps 3, still haven't talk to each other yet. is that a good sign?
Ps 4, Ill go for blackberry. Yay!

Thats all for now.
Goodevening
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