When it comes to expressing my feelings, I'm really a bad ass. Even I dah ada bf for 4years, its hard for me to say that 3 words in front of him. Even when I'm missing him, I won't tell. Infact, ill scare him away by merajuk/marah him for not being around. I'm suck kan?
Tapi, bila I period. Bukan men lagi bagitau satu dunia I rindu mj. Haih tak malu2. Kadang2 tu mj pun pelik. Kenapa ngan minah ni lembik semacam. Hahaha tapi kalau mj salah sikit je, siap la kau. Dia yg nangis kena marah haha.
Okay toksah dok gedik sangat cken.
The hard thing is when u don't know to express you feelings, ppl around you tak tau what is actually in ur heart. I memang fail part ni. I memang tanya what happen to them (frens yg sakit) but then I won't ask things like : "dah makan ubat ke? Sakit cmne? Dah makan dh? Rase ape hari ni? Nak pg klinik ke?" Infact I akan jawab: "Oh ok2. Pegi lah rest."
Urgh. I'm annoying kan? Actually I'm trying to put my self into their shoe. Bila I sakit I mestilah tanak orang ganggu kan? Hmmph. Hakikatnya tak semua orang macam tu. For me caring is when, u sign attendance untuk ur fren but for others its u both absence together. Ni contoh je ok, I tak mcm ni ye.
Harder part is bila org2 surrounding yang tak biasa dgn I yg aneh ni, mesti lah dorang rasa tak comfort kan. Ye la kalau you kawan I, you gastric n I jawab "oh ok2, makan la ubat". Tak ke rasa nak penampor je muke comel (NOT) ni?
Hardest part is bila ppl yang surrounding you tu rasa macam you tak care langsung about them! Haa tak ke parah tu. Its like instead of I tanya sendiri condition that particular person, I rather dengar dari orang lain, sebab for me I rasa mesti runsing orang tanya banyak2 kali kan. So baik tanya je kat orang yg dah tnya kawan yg sakit tu. So yg sakit tu takla runsing org tanya banyak2 kali. Haa paham tak? Hehe.
Kronik dah aku ni. Camne ek?
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